Lyrics .smile by Moby

Smile

When I draw myself in pictures, I draw my smile upside down
Because I can't recognize myself if i don't frown
So if I go down, I'm at peace cause I didn't know what I know now
Just so I don't drown
Living life is like a chore
I don't wanna be that person in the mirror anymore
Who is he?
I hate him
Wouldn't date him
I don't recognize him
And yet, for some reason, I despise him
Is it really surprising?
I'm going through the motions
Floating with my back towards the ocean
Broken
And yet, I feel chosen
And yet, I'm still hoping that she'll be coming back
Because that door is slowly closing
For so long it's been open
I traded her for vanity
Every f**king thought is just a seed for my insanity
I never fabricate because it's never been my style
But in front of the cameras, I can't let them see denial
The pain of every smile

So smile, if you can
Cause even if it's fake and I'm in denial
For you, I'd be happy to die with a smile

Ooh, in this darkness
Please light my way
Light my way

[Verse 2}
They love your smile, unaware that it's a strain
It's a curse I have to live with after causing so much pain
They don't know it's a facade, and I'm the one to blame
Just a lie that temporarily shields me from the rain
I know it sounds insane, but trust
For my outside life, a happy face is a must
And I know it sounds pretty asinine, so it doesn't matter what I say
Sometimes I have to fake it just to make it through the day
I walk in crowds with my head held high
It takes all of my f**king energy to sell that lie
Cause in private, I walk around with my head held down
Eyes to the ground
Hidden from the media hounds
I have to lie to myself every time someone meets me
And say that I'm okay every time that they greet me
Cause the pain is so goddamn deep, it leaves a bruise
I may wear a smile, but it's a mask, I'm Tom Cruise

So smile, if you can
Cause even if it's fake and I'm in denial
For you, I'd be happy to die with a smile

Ooh, in this darkness
Please light my way
Light my way

Inside I struggle with the Batman and the Joker
I know what I did, and I know what side is closer
I know what you are thinking, and what you think I should say
Do I regret my decision?
Every goddamn day
So this black man pays for the sins of his faults
Watch him sign over his soul, as it turns into salt
And watch him cope with that decision using whiskey and denial
When he starts to see the light, then he finally can smile

[Outro}
Ooh, in this darkness
Please light my way
Please light my way
Light my way