Lyrics Anxious by Vin Jay

I dont know how much more of this I can take, my thoughts controlling me, my fears controlling me, I'm anxious

I been feeling anxious
Feeling like a slave to my mind I just wanna be free
I been feeling anxious
And when I look around there ain?t nobody feeling like me
I been feeling anxious
Hoping that I make it through the pain, got me begging god please
I been feeling anxious
Feeling like a slave to my mind I just wanna be free

I'm waking up in a panic gripping my chest tight
Can't wait till I can see the end of all these stressed nights
But I?m a soldier so imma put up my best fight
And pray to god that I won't have to suffer in my next life
Whenever I'm out in public I start to panic
I'm always on the edge like som?thing is gonna happen
The worst case possibl? is what my mind imagines
And this sh*t could get triggered by the slightest interaction
It's like it always makes you focus on your biggest fears
And it reminds you that you'll never make them dissapear
And when your mind is crystal clear this sh*t will interfere
Like dont you ever try to be driven or even switching gears
I'm going ballistic I'm broken no one can fix it
And I dont want physicians, just tryna feed me prescriptions
The pills I?ve been given gone beat me into submission
Cause a chemical imbalance controlling my whole existence
I been feeling anxious
Feeling like a slave to my mind I just wanna be free
I been feeling anxious
And when I look around there ain?t nobody feeling like me
I been feeling anxious
Hoping that I make it through the pain, got me begging god please
I been feeling anxious
Feeling like a slave to my mind I just wanna be free

Sometimes I leave a room in the middle of conversation
All because I'm anxious and feel like my hearts racing
It feels like I?ve lost all control of the situation
Guess it's time to hit the doctor for some stronger medication
But now I'm just see dated, I'm walking round like a zombie
A motherf**king shell of myself a carbon copy
Dont want this sh*t inside me there?s poison all in my body
All my days begin to blend and my memories getting spotty
So I'm just hoping that one day I live in peace
Was born a dreamer, but I swear this sh*t is bitter sweet
I'm nice at rapping but it's time to pick a different dream
Can't get up on no stage, I swear that thought alone just cripples me
And I'm not looking for sympathy or no love
I just had to vent em anxious and feel like I'm giving up
When the only care is self isolation and taking drugs
If you knew what it was like, I bet you probably wouldn't judge
I been feeling anxious
Feeling like a slave to my mind I just wanna be free
I been feeling anxious
And when I look around there ain't nobody feeling like me
I been feeling anxious
Hoping that I make it through the pain, got me begging god please
I been feeling anxious
Feeling like a slave to my mind I just wanna be free