Lyrics ​nothing to hold on to. by ​unknxwn.

Say you got my back but I ain't ever really seen you do it
You won't hit me back and I been really f**king going through it
I just need a call, I just need to talk
I don't wanna type and I don't wanna write these songs

Cause it hurts too much and it takes too long
I can say it don't exist if I don't write it down
I don't really wanna see myself around
I just wanna put myself inside the ground

I just wanna f**king die
I don't wanna f**king live
I just wanna f**king cry
I can't even shed a tear

I might really need a beer
I might really need to smoke
I don't wanna face the fear
I just wanna f**king go

I can't stop the f**king thought
I might crash this f**king car
I might go right off the bridge
I might run right through the bar

I don't really give a f**k no more
I can't figure out why my heart so sore
Everyday I wake up I don't rеally wanna live
I been feeling pain but I don't really wanna give
Into all thе things that I don't really wanna feel
Everyday the same, I don't think any of this real

Talk to my therapist, say existential
Tell me that all that I feel is just mental
What is the point that I'm trying to get to?
All that I've done, I don't think that I meant to

This a pathetic aesthetic, do not look up to me
Say I don't let it, but let it get to me
F**king regret what I let you do to me
I need a medic for what you do to me

Made a living off of talking bout how much I wanna die
All these feelings, when I'm in it all I wanna know is why
Am I the way that I am, should I really even try?
Why if I know that I can even give it any time?

Life is hard so I gotta live it harder
Got no car but I still be getting farther
I taste tar and I feel it in my lungs
I just learned I was all I ever needed all along