Lyrics ​bad dream by ​reptilelegit

I try to keep my face up
But old friends wanna say stuff
Ironic how I stay up
'Cause I don't wanna wake up
I feel my brain start to melt
I see I'm losin' myself
I complain 'bout mental health
But I don't seek any help

And it's hard for me to focus (Focus)
And I don't know why I wrote this
To be honest, everything I write is
Every other thing that should be spoken (Oh-oh)
They ain't aware that I feel like this (No)
They ain't aware that I'm tryna fight this (No)
I don't talk 'cause I'm going through a crisis
Think I know the reason why I wanna write this

I don't think I'm happy
Wakin' up's a bad dream
Crowded by the bad things
Crowded by the— (Ayy)
And I don't know what's happening
Seein' all them laughing
Feel some type of stabbing
I don't know what— (Ayy)
And I don't know what's happening

You don't understand, wanna close the curtains
Pеople talk about me like thеy want me hurtin'
And everybody try to paint me as an awful person
Trying to not give a f*ck 'cause nobody's perfect (Ayy, ayy)
And I know who I am, you don't gotta detest me
Try to love other people but they don't seem friendly
And the whole world loved me, now they turnin' against me
Homies that I thought I had started to be an enemy (Ayy, ayy)
Damn, so that's how it is?
Fighting around people about things I never did (Oh, oh)
Still making mistakes even though I ain't a kid
I just wanna make music for the fun and get lit
Oh shit (Oh shit), here we go again
Here's another person tryna play pretend
It's another person tellin' me that I'm they friend
But I know they gonna f*ck me over when we at the end, ayy

(And it's hard for me to focus)
(And I don't know why I wrote this)
(To be honest, everything I write is)
(Every other thing that should be spoken)
They ain't aware that I feel like this (No)
They ain't aware that I'm tryna fight this (No)
I don't talk 'cause I'm going through a crisis
(Think I know the reason why I wanna write this)

I don't think I'm happy
Wakin' up's a bad dream
Crowded by the bad things
Crowded by the— (Ayy)
And I don't know what's happening
Seein' all them laughing
Feel some type of stabbing
I don't know what— (Ayy)
And I don't know what's happening
I don't think I'm happy
Wakin' up's a bad dream (Wakin' up's a bad dream)
Crowded by the bad things
Crowded by the— (Ayy)
And I don't know what's happening
Seein' all them laughing (Seein' all them laughing)
Feel some type of stabbing
I don't know what— (Ayy)
And I don't know what's happening

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