Lyrics Slowly Dying by Jaytekz

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There's no one else to blame, I cause my own solitude
I'm the reason why my heart is ripped apart in two
Looked in the mirror and that person there I hardly knew
Like who the f*ck am I? And who have I been talking to
Cause these voices in my head are always talking back
Conversing with myself cause I feel like I'm all I have
And I'mma' take the blame, ain't tryna' point no f*cking fingers
I can't escape the rain, no matter what, pain always lingers
I stay away from everyone I love
No matter what I do I still feel like I'm not enough
Oh would you give a f*ck if I just chose to end it all
And if you do then how the f*ck can you just watch me fall
Can't you see my walls are closing in
Can't you hear the pain and suffering I'm holding in
I need help, I'm just afraid to ask
I'm no longer in control, I'm just waiting to crash

I'm so f*cked up, I know
I have been dying slow
Please take my pain away
I can no longer stay

I isolate myself cause I'm embarrassed of this shit
Cause everybody knows I hate the fact that I exist
I let my secrets out and everybody knows the truth
They know my suicidal tendencies are self-induced
I know there's no excuse why I should wanna' end my life
I'm well aware the grass is greener on the other side
I should be grateful right
So where's the disconnect
When I feel happy why does sadness always interject
It's like my misery is predetermined
I try and smile but deep inside I'm always weak and hurtin'
I know the devil's near and always lurkin'
I feel his presence every time the sun begins emerging
I been searching for so f*cking long
For a light that will remain permanently on
But that light forever seems to fade
Perhaps the dark is just impossible to evade

I'm so f*cked up, I know
I have been dying slow
Please take my pain away
I can no longer stay